Here is what I know for sure.
Everything happens for a reason. No matter how good or bad, the events in life take place for a reason. The reason might be to make your strong, stronger or strongest. It breaks you apart just so that you can come across the flames later and still survive when you are pushed back together.
My belief in reason comes along with my love for Karma. I was taught from the early age, do good and good will happen to you. By the age of 10, I was already reciting the summary of Bhagwat Gita by heart. At that time, I didn't know the meaning of Karma, at that time I barely knew the difference between good and the bad but one thing I knew for sure even then. Don't hurt people and if you can, always help anyone in need.
Ever since the childhood, these developed as habits and while I might not be the most perfect person in the world. I am always trying. I try to become a better person everyday, most of the times by doing good to others, not hurting people and recently by loving myself.
Karma always did its justice sometimes sooner, other times later but as I grew up, it started to feel unfair towards some more than the other. I talked to a friend, she simply put, "Life is unfair and you know what? The faster you accept it, the happier you live." Her idea of accepting whatever is thrown at my table didn't fit right with my beliefs.
I didn't grow that way. It seemed like she was giving up too easily for it seemed easier for her to blame on unfairness rather than herself for her failure. Only if she could have worked a little harder, she would have done well in her exams. Only if she tried a little harder she could have mended her relationship. After all, that's how the world worked for me, I did good and the good always came back.
Life seems like lord Krishna until you are hit by the reality. Then after, life becomes a chapter of a Paulo Coelho book. You are one of his characters, lost within the book, lost in the chapters of "other" perfect characters who are not you. Suddenly your hard work makes no sense and Karma is a slow rider. Same happened to me.
I started questioning my own belief system when the clouds of unfairness lingered above me. I was not trying harder, I argued with myself for the longest time. There is more I can do. I will have to learn to hit harder and break so that I can get past the door. Only later, I realized that I was standing in front of the wall. The bricks were iron made and I was weak.
Here, my two held beliefs contradicted with each other. The reason and Karma worked the opposite and lacked the support of my hard work. It was then, when I was introduced to new dimension of reason. The reason Karma is unfair is I am not ready yet or this is just the lesson I need to learn. I was way to stubborn too let go of my beliefs. I had to hold them together no matter what.
This left me with two interesting options, to give up and to work harder. The initial seemed easy and the right thing to do in my head. Latter sounded interesting and exciting. Well, sounds quite like me.
